It is time to get this blog started. I have been talking about it and just haven't had the courage to get going. So here we go!
My name is Andrea. I am a mother of 5 and have suffered from postpartum with 4 of my children. I want this blog to be a place where women can come and find that they are not alone. I hope that we can get enough women to contribute so you can find someone to relate to. For now it is just me. Here is how I new I need to go to the doctor and get some help.
I was living in a haze. My husband didn't know what to do. I had 2 beautiful children. I was a mother. It is what I have always wanted to be. But I didn't like it. I didn't like anyone or anything. One night I started dreaming up ways to kill my wonderful husband. I imagined myself taking out his handgun and loading it. At this point I knew that this wasn't me. When I went to see my doctor she knew right away that I wasn't my self and put me on medication. It took some time for me to accept what was happening. After I realized was was going on I felt better. I knew that I wasn't a monster and I just needed time to heal. Over the years and with each new child I have had different "symptoms". They have ranged from anger to sadness and mostly indifference. Talking about it to friends and having a very supportive husband are the only things that have kept me here.
If anyone out there has something that they would like to share please email me at ragouff@yahoo.com. Thank you!
